I have been trying for months to write a post worthy of being published, this evening I gave up the notion that my post has to be worthy of anything. It simply has to express my thoughts and feelings.
If I could open my mind and let you see things as I do, hear as I hear and feel as I feel you might understand why I have not been able to post for such a long time. The beauty is still there to be seen but I do not seem to be able to find the words to describe what I see. The birds still sing and music still plays but the sound is just a little bit flat and that takes away some of the enjoyment for me. I often feel anxious and confused; I will be doing something and have to stop because I forget what comes next. It can be very simple tasks like putting together the ingredients for a sandwich or emptying the dishwasher; I simply cannot remember what I need to do next. Put them all together and jumble them up and there you have my mind these days.
A dear friend of mine is going through some rough patches of his own lately and he is the reason I decided to give posting another go. No matter how jumbled, anxious, and confused I am I do always remember that my problems are small and inconsequential compared to others.
Three weeks ago, I had surgery on my right shoulder. It went well and is healing nicely, I am doing my rehab myself for this shoulder and it seems to be working fine. I am much more comfortable doing the rehab at home.
There is always hope.
